Imperfection

 Humans are the most complex and advanced creatures on Earth. Yet, we often hear terms like human error, imperfection, and emotional states such as depression, anxiety, stress, happiness, sadness, and anger. We are intelligent and conscious, sometimes so conscious that we overthink small things and forget to look on the bright side and truly live life. Questions like "Am I doing this correctly?" "What will others think?" "Am I going to die trying this?" and "Will this ever work?" constantly fill our minds, leading to negative thoughts. In our quest to find answers to these questions—which ultimately don't even matter—we waste precious time that will never return. As the well-known saying in Hindi goes, “Khaali Dimag Shaitan ka Ghar” (An empty mind is the devil's workshop).

Today, I am writing a small story that focuses on how imperfection is the very thing that makes us stand out and be different in a good way. Let me take you on the journey of Ziggy and Aria, who recently entered a long-distance relationship. They met online and fell in love. Ziggy is a working professional, while Aria is an undergraduate. During the first month, they talked throughout the day, sharing every single detail about their days. The relationship was new and exciting, and they had a lot to share. As time passed, things seemed to be going well. It's been six months now, and they've had the opportunity to meet each other twice. Aria, still in college, had quite a lot of free time and holidays. However, things were not the same for Ziggy. His workload had increased, and he started becoming busier. Despite this, their relationship remained strong, and they managed to make it work.

Now, let’s imagine how both of them are. Aria is a slim, brown girl with curly hair, a beautiful smile, and captivating eyes. She has insecurities about her complexion and her lean frame. Ziggy, on the other hand, is a stout guy with little to no facial hair but fair skin. He is self-conscious about his weight and lack of a beard. Despite this, he is mature and has a charming sense of humor. Aria also shares a good sense of humor and is an excellent basketball player. She always wanted to ask Ziggy why he chose her over others, feeling that she wasn't beautiful and didn't have a great figure. She feared that in the corporate world, Ziggy might find someone better and leave her. These questions plagued her because she was conscious and self-aware. Ziggy had similar thoughts, but he didn’t overthink them because he was certain he wanted to marry Aria. He knew she was the one.

Today is their first anniversary, and Aria is almost done with her graduation and has already secured a placement. However, her office is far from where Ziggy works. Aria worried that for the next two or three years, they wouldn't be able to meet often as both would be busy working. So, Aria asked Ziggy, "I am not that good-looking, I get angry, have lots of mood swings, and trouble you a lot. Still, why are you with me? There are lots of other options out there for you." Ziggy didn’t expect this question from her. He paused, looked at her, smiled, and asked, “You really want me to answer this?” Aria said, “Yes.”

Ziggy said, “There may be hundreds or thousands of beautiful girls out there, but my eyes only sparkle with joy when I see you. Seeing your radiant smile every time you look at me gives me the satisfaction of being with someone who loves me for who I am. You are not only stunning but also have a witty mind that harmonizes perfectly with mine. You soothe me whenever I have any misunderstandings. Whenever I feel low, you lift my spirits effortlessly. I am gentle and often indecisive, but you are sharp and strong, guiding me through confusion. You complete me in ways I never imagined. Your presence makes my flaws vanish.”

He gently took her hand, his eyes filled with love and sincerity. “Aria, you are my heart's desire. You are my light in the darkest times. You make me feel alive, cherished and understood. In a world full of uncertainties, you are my constant. I choose you, today and always because you are my perfect imperfection, and that’s what makes our bond unbreakable.”

As Ziggy's words sank in, tears welled up in Aria’s eyes. She felt an overwhelming surge of joy and love. She realized that their imperfections made their relationship unique and strong. Their love story wasn’t about finding perfection but about embracing each other’s flaws and growing together. Aria hugged Ziggy tightly, grateful for their imperfectly perfect love.

Navigating Life: A Retreat to Rediscover Your Authenticity

 In today's bustling world, the opinions of others often guide our decisions, steering us away from our authentic selves. While external influence can offer valuable insights, it sometimes drowns our melody in the noise of societal expectations. Many find themselves entangled in the pursuit of predefined success, leading to questions, confusion, and a reliance on external validation. In a society marked by anxiety, the need to take a break becomes evident. Seeking external opinions is beneficial in decision-making, but the ultimate choice must align with one's genuine aspirations.

An ancient saying wisely suggests, "The answer to all your questions hides in nature." This wisdom encourages a pause, prompting individuals to step away from societal demands and seek solace in nature's embrace. During this retreat, within the serenity of the natural world, one can find the peace necessary to hear their voice. Nature becomes a canvas for self-reflection, a space to ponder happiness and life's purpose. The answers, unburdened by societal constructs, emerge as a symphony of individual desires and aspirations. In this revelation, stress dissipates, replaced by a newfound equilibrium between work and life.

In conclusion, the transformative power of stepping outside the bubble of external influences. It serves as a reminder to pause, seek solitude, and embark on a journey of self-discovery. By aligning with our authentic selves, we can navigate life's symphony with grace, embracing the joy of living in the present moment.

Lost her in my anger

 As quoted in every movie I had ever watched. I thought it was bullshit. I now have realized that it is true that you don’t know the real worth of people until you lose them. Well, I lost somebody this year. We have planned on starting 2023 as the most romantic year of our relationship. We were just getting started when I sank the ship. Yes, reader, you might have guessed it by the title, I rained over her in my anger. Let me start by telling you how I came into this situation in the first place. The story will be brief because we both agreed to keep it secret. So, I cannot open up all the way. One day she just came out of nowhere in my life. My life where I was pretty sure that all I wanted was to stay single forever because I was done loving someone. Then she lands in front of me, and my heart beats so loud every time I see her. I get confused and have difficulty finding a word even to greet her. Well, I will admit I look weak by the word, but no mistake it was beautiful and worth being one. Soon I realized that I should confront her,  and I did after a day or two. One day, I expressed it to her, and guess what? she gave me a chance. We had beautiful 2 months of togetherness that I can never forget. We used to catch up in our free time and spend quality time together. She used to tell me everything, and I listened to her. I found it amazing that after almost years past, I felt so loved. I was really looking forward to this relationship. I was in love, and it was beautiful. However, it was a secret, so I could not tell about this to my friends. I would be so proud to tell everyone that I love her cause she was so perfect. Well, now maybe you are curious about who she is? Let me give you a short description of her. She had the most beautiful eye I have ever seen when I see those eyes, my mouth gets dry, and I struggle to find any word to confront her about how I feel seeing her in front of me. Her innocence of always being good to everyone was the same as mine. I have never cared who the person is. If he/she asked for help, I was willing to provide, and so was she. The biggest I have appreciated and respected in her is her ambition to become someone on her own I know it seems a lot like a made-up thing, but it is not. I have something of my own count it as my goal in my life. She had one, and she shared it with me. I was amazed to see how determined she was toward her goal. I was looking at my perfect, beautiful, and mature girlfriend, who also happened to have childish behavior again, which I found really cute. Now that you have a picture of her in your mind, let us move forward. We used to have a fun meeting every once in a while and cared about each other more than anything else. We were mad at each other, starting from being jealous of each other to ruling above others just for the sake of other person's good and well-being. I was so lucky the whole time because I was her first guy. Maybe I should have considered this when I lashed at her for the first time. Now even thinking of it, I feel guilty. Back to the story, we had our first kiss, and she was so excited and nervous. I felt her trust in me in that kiss. I am really missing her while writing this. Okay, we kept meeting and had chit chat hiding from everyone we knew. We used to chat, laugh and take good care of each other. Now that day comes when I have to go far away from her for a while and let me tell you something I have always feared long distances because it never works for me. But I have now realized that I have never given my 100 % to it to work in the first place. I am not the guy who had 10s and 20s girlfriends before I realized that long distance does not work for me. It was just one time, and I got hold of it. Let me come to the bad side of the story now. It was nighttime, and we were chatting when I said, I do not like a girl who lies to me. Maybe, I did not mean it that time, but anybody would be pissed when someone tells them like that. She had all right to be angry with me, but then I was angry too, and guess what? fire plus fire does not go away by itself, and it grew bigger. The next thing I realized, she would not talk to me anymore. We started having a catfight now and then again and again, and then she stopped. I was heartbroken and felt really bad for myself and her. I was the only man she shared everything with, maybe even more than she told her family. And I messed it up for her, maybe she hated me. We did not talk much after that. One day out of nowhere, she called and wanted to meet. My heartbeat went through the sky when I saw her name on my phone. I messed up again. But I got her the next day, and we met and had an amazing time. I was so excited to get her back but totally forgot that she would not be there forever, and that got me in the right place and that hurt. Days went I was getting angry with her in small things cause I had this in my mind that she was not going to be mine at the end of the day. One morning she woke up and asked me a favor to delete our photos. Maybe, she did not feel safe having them with me, but I expected her to trust me. Because maybe I am the most sensual and angry person you will ever see, but I am loyal. I respect other person life, decision, and loyalty. After reading this, you might see my mistake of being rude to her. I was as well in our last fight, and I will tell you I have said bad to her but believe me when I say you. I love this girl like nothing else, and when I say I mean it. I respect her, and I feel bad asking for a chance again and again. But I have learned that a little more patience in a relationship would be worth a lot more than me knowing everything she does. A little trust in her decision would give her more faith in me than questioning why she went with that option in the first place. A little less anger would get our relationship longer than I ever imagined. As true as the quote I started with is, this is too. I love her, and if I get a second chance to be with her, I will not miss it for the world.

Never Expected

 

One morning I woke up, looked outside the window, and saw that there was a rosebud in a plant. I quickly went outside and observed, it was so small, covered with its green sepal. I watered it that day and woke up early the next day just to water the plant so that it blooms quickly. I constantly roused up early in the morning and doused water on it. One day I noticed petals of rose started to sneak out of the sepals -was struggling to get out of it. After a few days, its petals sprung up and started to disperse, I guess that was its most beautiful period when it looked stunning. The next morning -I woke up and the outermost petal was a little torn because of the wind last night- wind shook the plant and the throne of its own punctured small holes in the petals. It kept happening for a few days, after that I looked at it and it was quite unexpected -a lot of its petals were torn badly and were bad in shape. Nevertheless, I continued watering and many days later it started to come together and began to spread fragrance, which added its own magical aura to the ambiance. It is now beautiful and pleasing to my eyes.

The same night after I went to bed and before I fell asleep I imagined a time-lapse of a rose blooming from bud to become a beautiful flower and instantly a thought struck my mind. ‘How similar is our life to this rose?’ During childhood our parents took such good care and never let anything happen to us even so as we grew up, we aspire to get out of their guidance and explore the world and that is the most exquisite time span of our life where we experience a lot of new things- new ideas come to our mind, future seems to be bright, career going smooth, in-fact everything is balanced and goes according to us but after a while suddenly we are knocked by adolescence, puberty and need to decide what to pursue further to have a good career and bright future. As soon as the bad phase passes we bloom again and bloom forever because now we have already learned to face the problem, take the right decision for our-self, and know what is good for us. And in all this journey the one who waters us is our parents they never give up on us no matter what.

I never expected that I could learn such an important lesson about life from a rose. That’s when I realized if you want to understand life –just observe… and observe your surroundings, the answer lies nowhere else but in the beauty of nature itself.

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After it starts Raining

It's hard for almost everyone to quickly start a conversation with a stranger standing right next to you, knowing that he/she won't interact again. But if it's your heart call, not your mind, then make sure that you listen to it and try to appeal to the person because if it's gone, it's gone.

In late evening nearly about 6:00 pm at the bus stand, Lot of people were waiting for a vehicle to their particular destination. In the crowd, there was a boy at the corner right next to the board where the names of a bus and time of their arrival and departure were written-standing and gazing down the street for the bus. Suddenly, he witnessed a girl with a fair face tone, pointed chin, and beady eyes, he found her elegant in a black dress with curly hair-walking up toward the bus stop. The girl came and stood right next to the boy. She noticed the appearance of the boy and was impressed with his sense of clothing but didn't manifest to her face. The boy realized he saw her for the first time and assumed that she might be new to this locality. 

Slowly the crowd declined-there were few people left. No sooner had the bus arrived, the remaining few went off leaving the boy and girl alone at the bus stop. Before there were copious people, both the boy and girl were enjoying the company of the crowd and their gossip. Now that they were off to their destination, both of them went busy with their phones as they felt awkward to start the conversation.

[Looking at the ambiance, the cloud has covered the sky, slowly the breeze is turning into the wind and cool air started to gust.]

Boy depicted "how can I hold onto the bus shelter if bus won't arrive for a couple more minutes and it starts to rain." Because the bus shelter was roofless, the boy was a bit worried about the rain as he wasn't carrying an umbrella. However, the girl was relaxed as she had an umbrella. Time passed by, it started drizzling but the bus didn't arrive. So, the girl shelled out herself with an umbrella- when she glimpsed the boy getting wet in the rain. The girl felt woeful and asked the boy to come and take shelter under her umbrella.

After that boy felt it will be better to introduce himself so he said "Hi, I am Sane, and thanks for the umbrella." The girl too replied "No problem at all and by the way, I am Sejal".

[The bus arrived after a minute and a half, they hopped in and that bus took them towards the beautiful destination they had never imagined.]

Moral: Always halt for the flawless moment to commence the conversation so that it could conclude ably.

 

 

MOM

After 9 months of struggle and pain, a loud cry brought a huge smile to her face. I still had my eyes closed but I could feel her love for me and the broad smile on her face over the pain she had gone through. I was brought near-she hugged, the warmth of her love filled my heart with the colors of the sky and I had my eye opened. Finally, I saw her smiling-it calmed my heart and I slept in her arms. Since then every time when I had an issue, I just remember her smile and my heart starts flying on top of every problem I had.

[I think that’s the only one day in the entire life, mom’s heart are full of happiness and joy when they hear their baby crying. Other times they are the most worried lady, even if your mood is slightly off.]

The first love of my life is my mom, her love is the purest. She trusts blindly, she cares a lot and I know she will never betray me because only the person with selfishness tries to betray but she never asked anything in return for her love, care and trust. The only lady in the whole universe whose needs come after mine, who is starving but still finishes my hunger first, and who is in pain but always ready to wipe up my tears before her.

No matter how older I am or I will be but her love is constant and will be forever. The first teacher of my life, the best guide who guides me to walk on the right path in life, a pure source of motivation, and the only lady who understands me better than myself, my mom, I love you, mom.

Seven days of Valentine

We often want it so

Badly, we ruin it

Before it begins.

Over-thinking, Fantasizing,

Imagining, Expecting,

Worrying, Doubting.

Just let it

Naturally, evolve.

 February 6,

Shortly before 11 am- Jimmy was walking down the road heading towards the market. No longer than four minutes of a walk he saw a girl which he has been following for two weeks since the last sight was walking towards his apartment. After that quick moment, he continued walking to the market-    grabbed his stuff- reached the apartment and it was already mid-day. He was at the gate and found that girl right in front of him- he tried to be serene.

“Hey, I am Joe.” said the girl.

“Hi M Jimmy.” He replied and they quickly finished their introduction.

“Would you mind showing me room no 303?” asked Joe.

“Yes sure, it’s right next to mine,” replied Jimmy.

Jimmy showed Joe her room and instead, Joe asked him for a coffee, and he could not refuse her. They were having coffee and as soon as he asked to exchange their number, ‘door-bell rang’-

She opened the door and welcomed two of her friends who were going to be her room partner.

“Say hello to my friend Jenna and Juli, and he is Jimmy”, said Joe.

All of them had coffee together and Jimmy didn’t get a chance to ask her number. He left the room after coffee and started looking at her name on social media. Finally, he found the profile on Facebook- he sent a request and soon it was accepted by Joe. He started chatting & finished asking for a mobile number in that chat. He went to the balcony-it was already sunset which was not normal for him- today’s sunset just melted his heart-he walked in after sunset-finished his all the homework- had dinner and he started chatting with her till late at night.

It was nearly 10 pm-Jimmy asked Joe that if she had a boyfriend. She simply said, “I don’t.” It was late so he wished her good night and went to the bed.

February 7,

Jimmy woke up early at 5 am and wised her “good morning”. By the time they were kind of good friends. (As Jimmy is good-looking, good hearted, calm, shy & gentle too, he also has a very nice tone of talking- which helps him to come closer to anybody in their first talk.) Jimmy had also started talking to Joe’s friends-and both of her friends were in love with Jimmy’s smile. Joe hadn’t expressed but she was also impressed by Jimmy.

Right about 6 am- Joe replied “good morning”

“Let’s go for a walk,” asked Jimmy.

“Okay, my friends are also coming

Hope, you don’t have a problem with it” replied Joe

.

Then they departed the apartment and headed towards the garden which was two streets down the apartment. No sooner than they reached to garden Jimmy asked Joe about her family member-talking on the same topic they completed two rounds of the garden and headed to a coffee shop next to their apartment. They had had coffee and finally went to their rooms.

It was 9 am- While Jimmy was in the rush to his college- the phone rang up and it was Joe- he took the call. She just wanted to make sure that whether she had locked her window and door or not. Jimmy went to college and got scolded for coming late.

“Hey buddy, how you doing?” asked Jimmy’s friend.

“I am good. What about you? And how was your vacation?” replied Jimmy.

They had a discussion on jimmy’s friend's holiday and then he shared with him what he felt for the lady adjacent to his room. His friend suggested he purpose her in ‘propose day’ which was the next day. But he didn’t like the suggestion right at the moment. It was 2 pm by the time, he and his friend departed the school and headed towards their room. On the way home he asked his friend “What if she dump me?”

“Nothing much you need to look for another one.” His friend replied.

 He was quite worried then his friend suggested he take her out somewhere and offer her a rose as today is the rose day- He liked the idea. As soon as he reached home- he quickly texted Joe to go out with him. First Joe denied but then after several calls, she was ready to go.

Currently, it was 4 pm and they were in the restaurant- they ordered their meal- after a few seconds a waiter came over and gave a rose to Joe, she took it- there was a card inside when she read it she knew that it was him. She blushed which was a quite good sign for Jimmy. They ate their meal-danced for a while and left the restaurant. Till they got home it was already 7 pm- Joe was super impressed by Jimmy. Joe knew that jimmy was likely to propose to her tomorrow- so she asked her friend about that-as Jenna and Juli were also in touch with jimmy so they suggested Joe accept if he proposed. It was already late discussing so they slept.

February 8

Morning 7 am- Jimmy wasn’t able to sleep till late at night he was doing rehearsal so that he could propose to her in a very fine way. He texted her ‘good morning’- Soon reply came over they both started chatting. Jimmy went to the balcony and found Joe playing with baby-seeing and he felt affection for her.

It was 9 am and they both departed the apartment at the same time and headed towards the college- nothing much happened at college and he returned home earlier than usual. While coming he found a man in a wheelchair trying so hard to climb the inclined road- he quickly got to the man and helped him to climb the road. Further on his way, he found a dog whom he used to feed every day returning from college and he fed the dog that day too. During all these Joe was watching him from far away without giving any sense of presence. He reached home- quickly changed and waited for Joe to come. He was doing his homework and Joe arrived.

As soon as she reached her room text pop up-

“Hey joy, I have something to tell you. Will you be upstairs soon” said Jimmy.

“Okay I will be there in a minute,” Joe replied.

Time was about 6 pm- Right after she came- Jimmy bent down on one knee, took her hand in his and confessed to her about his feelings for her. She was surprised, she had expected a proposal but in this way she had never imagined. She could not stop herself from saying ‘yes’. After this, they hugged each other and stayed up for a while gossiping and then went down to their rooms- had a meal and he ended that day wishing her a ‘good night’.

February 9

Today Joe woke up early and wished Jimmy ‘good morning’- Jimmy woke up with the popup sound and replied to her text. He left the bed went to the bathroom- brushing his teeth- seeing himself in the mirror he asked “Is this all real?” he pinched himself to come out of the dream but it was all real.

He cooked a meal for himself and finished doing the remaining homework. Later on, he started getting ready for his college- today also they departed together and moved to their corresponding college. When jimmy reached college his friend asked about yesterday- they had a couple of minutes' talk on that and suddenly the teacher arrived- classes continued. After class, he returned home- met Joe, and went to the same garden two streets down. While they were talking, Jimmy took out some chocolates out of pocket and gave them to Joe as it was ‘chocolate day’. They returned home at about 6pm- cooked their meal- finished homework and slept after chatting for half an hour.

 February 10

Joe was in bed and suddenly the doorbell rang. She left the bed and walked towards the door- opened it- her eye remain wide opened seeing a giant teddy bear outside the door. She quickly came and thanked Jimmy after that they both freshened up and went to college and after they return- again they went for a short walk. The usual thing happened and their day ended wishing ‘Good night’ to each other.

February 11

It was promise day and again early she received a long letter filled with warm morning wishes and few promises. Same as before, today too they both went their college together. When Jimmy reached college some of his friends started asking him about the girl he was in love with- he only shared a little bit about how they came together.

One of his friends asked him “Did you kiss her yet?”

“No, and I won’t” he replied.

Friends said (laughing) “U will be dumb forever- Be man dude.”

Again teacher entered suddenly and they stopped talking- while he was departing the college, one friend dare him that if he kisses her he would admit him as superior. He returned home- but he didn’t find any text of Joe till his long return. He was worried and knock on Joe’s door. Joe’s friend opened the door and informed him that she was having a stomach ache and also informed him about the arrival of her parents for one day visit so she won’t be meeting him for a day- he left.

Later he texted her at night and a few talk and they slept.

February 12

He started his morning the same as before and noticed the arrival of Joe’s parents. It was Saturday and Joe could not text him or meet him due to the certain arrival of her parents. So Jimmy thought to go to his friend’s house to hang out. He left the apartment and reached his friend’s house slightly before 9 am-there were two more friends already. They all played video games and had some food- all of sudden,

One friend asked, “Did you kiss her?”

This time he didn’t want to be suppressed by a friend so he replied aggressively, “I will… on kiss day.”

“Okay, let’s see how much guts you got.” Replied his friends.

After this he left his friend’s house and started walking along the river- he called Joe and asked whether her parents had left or not. When she said, they didn’t. He sounded anxious “why the hell are they still here? You told me that they are here for 1 day and still they did leave.”

“I still have pain so they are here, they are my parents- how they could leave me when I am in pain and what happened to you- first be calm and call me.” Replied Joe. Then he went to his room and slept. Directly woke up late evening and started texting her “I am so sorry for what I spoke earlier.” No replies came for a minute then he started calling- it was busy. After a while, his text was replied, “Sorry I was on a call with my school friend.”

“Was that boy or girl?” asked Jimmy.

She said that it was a boy. Then Jimmy again in the anxious way “You can talk to your other male friend in front of your parents but you can’t talk to me.”

They both had a quarrel for that night and ended up chat quarreling- they slept.

(Having a conversation with any person is everyone’s right, nobody could violet it even if you are in a relationship with somebody else- the thing is you should not cheat your partner, every relationship has its own limit we must stay in that. You can’t control your partner's life- nobody gave you that right. So never make it an issue until and unless they are crossing their limit or cheating on you.)

 February 13,

Jimmy asked sorry immediately after he woke up. And Joe also considered it and also mentioned that she was fine and her parents had left early in the morning. Jimmy made meals for himself and did his work and left for college. At college his friend again reminded him about what he told yesterday- He went home.

Shortly before 4 pm- Jimmy and Joe departed for the garden. They were having a good talk and suddenly Jimmy kissed Joe. Joe suddenly went to the discomfort zone and said “Why did you do that? Didn’t you think of asking me first for that?” After that, they left- returned home and Jimmy quickly texted “I am sorry it was kiss day so, I just stole a kiss.”

“I don’t like being kissed, at least you should have asked my permission, my decision should also be valued. Every girl just searches for a boyfriend who respects their decision as well their feelings-who doesn’t aspect anything instead of their love and care.” Joe replied.

Jimmy felt so good listening to that and he asked sorry for all that he had done in the past 2 days and promised that he will never hurt her again. Day has already turned into night and they went to their bed.

It was finally Valentine, February 14

On the day of love, Jimmy woke up wished Joe ‘Good morning’. Shortly before 6 am- They went to the garden for a walk- today Joe was so happy seeing the older Jimmy. They both completed 2 rounds and returned back to their room- got ready for college. They departed the apartment and headed towards their college.

Right after Jimmy visited- his friend asked “Did you kiss her?”

Just to see their reaction and expectation he said that he did. Then again one of his friends stood and said: “That was just a test of your guts- if u will be able to have a physical relationship with her then we will consider you as superior to our group.”

He said politely “I am okay with what I am, I don’t think anyone can prove their bravery by being physical with their girl.” Saying this he left.

After this, he returned home and lived happily with his girl.

(Relationship aren’t just a word it’s a bond between two souls you can’t get into it and move out whenever you wish. Here you need to respect each other feelings and show your love probably without being physical.)

Day I've lost that loving feeling

Hey, I am just one of the guys from this selfish world. Like everyone I too have a dream to accomplish. I was already on my way to it however at one point I got distracted by something that could neither be ignored nor be taken parallel with my dream. I thought to give some of my time on it and see whether I could have another way to take both things together. It was a feeling for that girl who distracted me from my goal. It was already two month since I saw her for the first time. We used to have simple hi and hello when we met accidentally. Feeling for her was getting stronger and stronger day by day. She was so adorable- her eye was beautiful that I could recognize it among thousands of other eyes-her smile was so pure that I could forget all my sorrow. After someday I decided that it’s time to push myself forward and I went in-front of her she was talking with her friends.
 “Will you please excuse us for some time” I said. 
Now it’s just us-“I have many regrets about my decision however to spend my life with you was the proudest of my life. I love you-Will you be my girlfriend?” I approached.
 She said that she don’t wanna be in relation due to her own reasons. Though it hurted, I appreciated her for clear rejection & for not hanging me around her just for a while- we both left. It was a second day after our last meet I saw her in my friend’s birthday party and I noticed her being close with a guy I never saw around her before. I quietly asked about who he is. And she said that he was her boyfriend. I was like wtf-seriously, you just said yesterday that you were single and don’t wanna be in relation just two day ago and now you are with your boyfriend. She said, “Yeah, it’s my life-I can do whatever I like to.” Hearing that I got frozen for a second, and I went out- from that day I started loving myself.